Addiction

Many people face addictions everyday!  I myself face alcohol and tobacco addictions.  I always tell myself I can control these things, but in reality, they control me.  I've sat and pondered many times on the reasons I am addicted to alcohol and tobacco, but I always come up with no answers.  It's taking a lot of willpower to not drink the last two days! But i set a goal after my little mini vacation that I would not be an alcoholic.  I need to slow down, i need a major detox.  many will sit and say you can't do it, you don't have the power.  But i am here to tell you at this point in my life it has to happen.  I'm 30 years old and have very little to show for in my life!  Tobacco, may be a little bit easier to kick!  But I already know I will prolly get super grumpy and blah blah blah!!! Well That's enough for this post!!! 

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined"

-Henry David Thoreau

Thought of the day!

It's rather interesting that I'm still talked about amongst the gays of BG!  Just to clarify for some, I do not have any intentions of moving back to the area! I'm better off and much happier where I am!  I have my down days but I am so much better off here than I ever was in BG! But thanks for keeping my spirit alive BG gay rumor mongrels! It's nice to know you still have nothing better to talk about! 

It's Been A While~

Well So much has changed in the past few months~ I have my struggles in life.  I am about to close one chapter of life and begin another~  Life Changes and as I get older I feel the urge to change with it~ Having well over 9 years of BMV experience I am ready for a change~ A new beginning with a brighter future~ Getting out of the shadows of my past and the people~ I have made many great friends and had a blast in this chapter~ Some friends will carry on into the new chapter other will not~ Only time will tell the outcome of that~ I am leaping into this chapter full throttle~ I know it's not going to be an easy adventure, but I am willing to start making the sacrifices needed to better myself as a human being.  I do not believe I am who I want to be in Bowling Green, Ohio... I don't see a future here, at least the future I want.  Making the choice to follow Lance and leave here, I can not say if it's wise or just impulse.. But either way It's going to happen and I hope that it brings me much happiness and joy~  For now my few friends that read this, Peace out and Happy Tuesday~ 

~The Mad Man~

Just need to Get a few things off my mind

I really am tired of all the intolerance in the gay community. They are always Screaming and preaching about tolerance and acceptance when in reality we have to much hate and intolerance between ourselves.   

The one thing that pisses me off most is the guys saying "Just looking for friends" yet they never respond to any messages.  I personally hate that people are only looking for friends that fit a certain description.  When I say I want to make friends on a site I respond to 99.9% of all messages~ Now if i put on looking for sex or something like that I will at least be courteous enough to tell you I am not interested.  

I am not one to beat around the bush I will tell you exactly what i want.  If I want (usually when alcohol is involved, which is always) to suck your dick, I will be blunt and say Hey I wanna suck your dick.  Now That may make me look like a dick, but hey I'm being honest and yea Oh well... Don't like it get over it. 

OK I think that is all I wanted to do.... I am totally not all there and frustrated over people :) 

A New Year, A New Me????

Well it's 6 days into a new year, Will this be the year I become who i want or will i still hide under this shell of a human being?  So much I want to change and express myself for who I truly feel I am :) I truly hope this is the year :) Just wanted to give a little Hello~ And Now it's time to get to bed~ 

A wonderful holiday season :)

So the holidays went great! Spent a lot of time going over the things in life that are important to me. Trying to figure out how I can make 2013 the year I accomplish something meaningful. I'm really excited to see what July throws my way. Shall it remain the boring life in BG that it is now, or will a new city and a new adventure start! I'm rather hoping its a new adventure. In looking forward to moving on and moving past the ghosts that haunt me here in NWO. I'm totally thinking a career change is in order. I love my job but I really think its time to figure out what I want to do with my life. And I'm really hoping 2013 will be the year I figure it out! Of course I'm going to miss the great people I have come to know, but there just comes a time in everyone's life when the norm just isn't enough anymore. At some point in ones life they must learn to spread their wings and fly free. It's about time I went and did something for myself, and now do what others expect or want me to do. It's my life I will start living it the way I want to. I'm sure some will become angry and not be supportive, but hey they have their life to live and I have mine :).
Enough rambling for now, enjoy this winter wonderland :)

THE RAMBLING MAD MAN

WInter

So The only downfall to winter, being so damn dead at work.  It kind of really sucks~ I mean really I don't want to work half the time but hell I'd rather be steady than dead.  It makes for a very very long day :( 

So Tonight is a laundry night arg, I shall only do one load.  LoL Yes that is how lazy I am feeling this evening.

Chicken is in the oven cooking... Not exactly sure how long to cook it, Lance thought 15 mins, well that certainly was wrong, not even close~  So I shall just have to keep checking it.

The best part of the day.... Ozzy curling up beside me all cuddly while I am playing on my lap top :) 

I shall leave you with this thought:

ALCOHOL.....

The Rambling Mad Man