Sunday, December 4, 2011

Another Random!

I hate the fact I think about you day and night, when I talk to someone new I compare them to you!  All the good and all the bad!  I still miss you and Love you everyday!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Random

I've been thinking about you all day today!  I wish I could get you outta my head!  I cried, and hoped you would say hi! But it never happened!  Hope your doing well!  I'm doing OK!  I miss you and I love you!! Hope life is treating you well!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Day Seven of the 30 Day Writing Challenge!!!!!

Day 7: A day in the life of a five-dollar bill


My day began as this crazy fool used me to buy a stick of gum.  I was sad when i saw he traded me in for more smaller bills.  What a waist.  I napped for a whole 10 mins while laying in the drawer of this smelly gas station.  Then all of a sudden i was rudely awaken and before i could realize what was happening I was being crumpled and shoved into some random pocket with some not so cool one-dollar bills.  What would my parents think if they saw me all wadded up in a pocket with ones.  So I lay in this pocket for I lost count of how many hours.  I heard the faint noise of people talking and all of a sudden I was back out being tossed onto a table.  All of a sudden i was being snatched up by a girl complaining about only getting a 5.  Ah I was in a burger joint.  I as tossed into the girls apron, I stayed there and had some wonderful conversations with all the other change.  They seemed like there day was just a tad rough.  Next thing i knew i was being sorted into a pile. And I was with all 5's then i was shoved into a bag shortly after that.  Next thing i knew I was being pulled from the bag and thrown into a big plastic jar.  There was so much change and so many bills, and they all were talking at once and i got annoyed fast hoping my next move would come soon. But i listened to a few of them.  It seemed very unlikely i was going to be leaving anytime soon.  This one penny had been in this jar for 3 months.  So I accepted it and Decided it was time for sleep, a very very long long sleep! 

Friday, November 11, 2011

Day Six of the 30 Day Writing Challenge!!!!!

Day 6: Summer


Summer is a wonderful time of year, except the heat.  But its a time of cooking out having some beverages and just enjoying being oneself.  Not to mention Shorts  and flip flops.  I hate wearing shoes so flip flop season is wonderful!  But the best thing about summer is being able to swim.  Just feeling free in water is a very enjoyable feeling.  Summer brings about a sense of closeness to everyone else.  Everyone loves summer.  Summer reminds me of vacations and fun times!  Wonderful parties and the time where you can meet new friends! 

Monday, November 7, 2011

Mind Fuck

A major point was made tonight.  As I figured I stopped hearing from you.  To me this feels like one big mind fuck. How long can i string him along.  "I'll try and respond in a timely manner"  hmm another lie.  I guess I'm not as important to you as you say I am.  I sit here and think hmm what did I do?  Oh wait apparently you cheated bc I cheated.  Well the distance grows further and further everyday!  And I foresee that distance becoming far greater than can be repaired.  I can not and will not live like this!  Again I feel like a convenience to you.  You say I'm not and yet you have done nothing to prove it.  The only thing you have proven is I am only a convenience to you.  And its sad when I have 3 total strangers say almost the exact same thing about you, and yet I'm suppose to believe your telling me the truth.  You've lied so much in the past, and I've tried not to listen to others but it's starting to get to be to much.  One of these days I will have had enough and I will be gone.  It won't be able to be repaired.  It's almost to a point where the damage is irreparable.  I've been so depressed lately and can not get out of this funk I am in.  But when I am finally able to fall asleep, hopefully within the next 45 mins so by 5am, I will wake up and it will be a bright day.  A new day!  A day where my life will begin to get better, where I will smile a true smile.  With you or with out you, I will smile, and look at the good things in my life.  I will focus on repairing what has been broken and blocking that which breaks me. I am standing up and will no longer be a convenience.  You've had your chance to prove me wrong, your chances are running out.  We shall see where time takes us.  No more broken promises.  Peace Out!!! 

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Day Five of the 30 Day Writing Challenge!!!!!

Day 5: You can only keep five things you have. What will they be? Why?


1.  My lap top because with out it I would be lost to the world!  It is usually my only means of communication with most of my friends and family.


2.  My grandfather's eagles ring.  Because it was the last thing my grandfather gave me before he passed away and holds a lot of sentimental value.


3.  My blanket, because it is my comfort zone.  If I have it I feel safe and not alone most of the time!


4.  My personal journal because it has a lot of my writings in it that I hold dear and Things I honestly don't remember writing. and it was given to me by someone very close.


5.  My pillow, because everyone deserves a nice fluffy surface to lay their head down on when they need rest!

Day Four of the 30 Day Writing Challenge!!!!!

Day 4: What do you sense you're supposed to do before your life is over?




I feel I can not answer this question at the current time.  It is a question I've been searching the answers for some time now!  To find the answer to ones fate takes time.  One can not expect to find the answer when one just started his/her quest to find them.  I hope what i am to accomplish is one of purpose and self righteousness.  I hope it is something that will help me grow and make the next life a better one!  

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Day Three of the 30 Day Writing Challenge!!!!!

Day 3: How do you feel about the holidays?


Holidays can both be happy and sad at the same time.  It all depends on the holiday!  Sometimes Holidays really depress me.  It all depends. Sometimes I cant stand being around my family!  I love them to death but holidays can be depressing and just arg!  Holidays can be cheerful and a joyous time especially when my nephews are around.  They can put a smile on any ones face.  But overall holidays for me are a series of mixed emotions and each year is different and I seem to pull further into myself!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Day Two of the 30 Day Writing Challenge!!!!!

Day 2: Roses


Roses are the most beautiful flower.  Yellow roses are one of my most favorite flowers!  Roses can be beautiful and painful! 

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Day One of the 30 Day Writing Challenge!!!!!

Day 1: Pick ten people you know and write a one-sentence description for each of them.


1.  He always walks around thinking he is better than everyone else.
2.  She thinks just because of her parents she can do and get whatever or whoever she wants.
3.  He has been unable to tell the truth for as long as I have ever met him.
4.  He pretends he isn't a whore because he falls in love with a guy within a few days.
5.  He is unable to have a faithful relationship because he is unable to love.
6.  Her voice makes even a baby cry.
7.  He thinks criticizing everyone is ok.
8.  She thinks she is the most beautiful person in the world, but is utterly ugly on the inside.
9.  The movies he picks are rediculous.
10.  She believes she is so smart, but she looks like a complete idiot when she tries to sound smart!

30 Day Writing Challenge

Day 1: Pick ten people you know and write a one-sentence description for each of them.
Day 2: Roses
Day 3: How do you feel about the holidays?
Day 4: What do you sense you're supposed to do before your life is over?
Day 5: You can only keep five things you have. What will they be? Why?
Day 6: Summer
Day 7: A day in the life of a five-dollar bill
Day 8: In-laws
Day 9: Fertility
Day 10: Internet love
Day 11: Foreign
Day 12: What is your favorite day of the week?
Day 13: Panic
Day 14: Prom mishaps
Day 15: High School
Day 16: Write about your three best friends
Day 17: Write about your crush
Day 18: Writing
Day 19: Love Letter
Day 20: Clueless
Day 21: Pillow Talk
Day 22: Write about your worst relationship
Day 23: Valentine's Day
Day 24: Anniversary
Day 25: Penguins
Day 26: Archery
Day 27: Design a perfect day.
Day 28: Honor roll
Day 29: Write about tests
Day 30: Write about where you see yourself in five years.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Day 1- 5 Feb 2011

The weather is clearly telling me it's a stay in and watch movies day!!